The Lord restores.
Today is a very springlike day. And I can’t help but feel the breeze and smell the warmer air and feel a sense of new life beginning. My last post was about being rebuilt…and this post seemingly fits in response to it. At the very end of the previous post, I said that if there is one thing you can pray for me for, it would be to fall in love all over again. Over the past week, I have felt a drastic change in my heart. More pieces of who God has designed me to be, and my intimacy with Him have begun to be awoken and healing. And if you know me at all…..the tears have started to fall again, which is a huge part of who I am and how I am designed and this brings me hope for where I am at, and for the future.
Amidst of disappointments, God is prevailing.
Amidst of hurt and brokenness, God is healing.
Amidst of fear, God is relentless.
Amidst of what has been lost, God is revealing.
Amidst of what has been dead, God is bringing life.
Amidst of what was forgotten, God is bringing to light.
This particular rebuilding process, is a new one than I’ve experienced before. There truly is nothing new under the sun, as Solomon tells us in Ecclesiastes. For the things that at the beginning of falling in love with Christ that made me alive, are the same things now, that have been forgotten, that I realize bring me life even now. It is so easy to lose sight of who we are and the quirks and special things about us that God has placed inside of us. When we are dealing with hurt and brokenness and the ugliness of bitterness, and even in relationships with others and in ministry and work…we can forget who we are at our core because we get so caught up in what people expect of us, what they say about us, how we feel, what we WANT to do…(this list can go on), rather than remembering that who we are is completely found and designed in God and no one, or anything else.
The past week there have been things that have brought me closer to Christ. There have been conversations, there has been a fun group of kids, there has been stories and prayer time with others, and alone time reading and journaling and worshipping, there has been corporate worship and dancing time that have all been relevant, and touching my heart.
I truly feel as though I have seen a blackened heart, turn a few more shades of crimson red.
For this, I am grateful. For those moments and people, I am grateful.
And I actually look forward to what is to come.
“Thus says the Lord God to these bones: ‘Behold, I will cause breath to enter you, and you shall live. And I will lay sinews upon you, and will cause flesh to come upon you, and cover you with skin, and put breath in you, and you shall live, and you shall know that I am the Lord.’” Ezekiel 37:5-6