I had a milestone birthday a few weeks ago, the big 3-0. A brand new decade.
I was pretty excited about it. Excited to see what this new decade will bring me…
I’ve already started to freak out a bit about being in a new decade, because if I am being honest, where I am at now – is not where I expected I would be when turning 30. And when I look around me at other 30 yr olds, I’m not anywhere near where they are. But that’s called comparison, and that is something I am tempted to do, but always reminded that that’s not fair to do because I have a different path than other’s. Plus, when I really sit and think through what I’ve done thus far, and the people I have met, and the work I have done and am doing – I feel pretty blessed and privileged.
The 20’s helped to shape me, and the 30’s will only shape me even more. There have been lessons I needed to help mold me into who God has designed me, and there’s only more to come. I’m only a few weeks into 30, and I’ve already been hit with a bombshell of something that I need to work through…but I think I’m ready.
So, what did my 20’s teach me?
To have fun. That I’ll never reach the top (in a good way, staying humble basically and that there is always room to grow). That I don’t even want to be at the top. That I am always well taken care of and loved very well. That I cannot live alone. Dreams do come true, but aren’t always dreamy. That I’m clumsy. Technology hates me. I will survive. Sometimes I don’t have a choice and that is okay. God is ALWAYS good. That I am a hard and loyal worker. I love deeply. I need to be better at time management. I’ll never stop growing, but I also have to be intentionally about growing. You should ask for help. I have limitations and it’s okay. Kid’s are a delight to me and can always lift my mood. People believe in me, so I need to believe in myself. I was born to disciple and to worship.
I have high hopes for my 30’s. So here is what I’m hoping for:
That my 30’s will be good to me genetically. That I can get healthier, that I get more sturdy (even though I spilled water all over myself today), that I can live more intentionally, to not take myself so seriously, to be more happy, to let people in, overcome some fears, and to laugh so much more. Also really hoping to become a mom (via adoption). To choose joy more often. To not be so selfish.
I know that these list’s could be ridiculously long, but for your sake and because I like to keep many things to myself – I will spare you! Really, I just want to be obedient to Christ and to be helpful to those I love. I have so much more room to grow, and so many things to learn – so thanks to all of you who have been with me this far no matter at what point you came in. I’m looking forward to the future.
Enjoy some of these funny photos from my birthday part(ies). My friends are crazy, and thats why I love them. I like to think that I stir that crazy pot for them :).